It’s not easy being the younger sister – even if you’re a supermodel who’s appeared in countless magazines and catwalks.
Bella Hadid, 25, told Vogue what it’s like to be in the shadow of her older sister Gigi, who first entered the industry.
“I was the uglier sister. I was the brunette I wasn’t as cool as Gigi, not as outgoing,” she told the magazine for the April cover story.
“That’s really what people said about me. And unfortunately, when you’re told things so often, you just believe it… I always felt like I had something to prove. People can say anything about how I look, how I speak, how I act. But in seven years I have never missed a job, canceled a job, been late for a job. No one can ever say I don’t work my ass off.”
In the new issue, Hadid opens up about her mental health struggles, anorexia, a litany of illnesses including Lyme disease, and finally admits to going under the knife.
“People think I’m f–ked all over my face because of a picture of me as a teenager looking bloated. I’m pretty sure you don’t look the same now as you did when you were 13, right? I have never used filler. Let’s just end this. I have no problem with it, but it’s not for me. Whoever thinks I got my eyes lifted or whatever it’s called – it’s face tape! Oldest trick in the book,” she said.
But Hadid admitted the procedure she had: a nose job she had when she was just 14.
“I wish I had kept my ancestors’ nose,” she said. “I think I would have grown into it.”
Her father’s family is Palestinian-Jordanian and her mother is Dutch.
Hadid also revealed her numerous health issues. In eighth grade, she developed symptoms such as brain fog, anxiety, fatigue, headaches, bone pain, and crying spells that stemmed from Lyme disease. She was diagnosed with an underactive thyroid when she was 20 and was prescribed Adderall in high school, which led to an eating disorder.
“I was on this calorie counting app that was like hell to me. I’d pack my little lunch with my three raspberries and my stick of celery,” said Hadid, realizing it was less about calories and more about control. She no longer has an eating disorder, but feels the lingering effects of body dysmorphia and purposefully avoids mirrors.
In 2021, Hadid – who is dating art director Marc Kalman – experienced a crippling depression that led to a two-week stint at a Tennessee facility. There she began talking therapy and taking the antidepressant Wellbutrin.
She said: “For so long I didn’t know what I was crying about. I always felt so happy, and that would bring me down even more… I always felt like I had no right to complain, which meant I had no right to get help, which was my first problem. “