Wynonna Judd opens up about the pain of losing mom Naomi Judd

Wynonna Judd has opened up about “the pain” of losing her mother and longtime singing partner Naomi Judd to suicide.

“There is so much happening in the world right now. So before I sat down to write this, I was like, ‘No…I just don’t know what to say.’ Then I heard the words of my life coach asking me, “What do you know?” And I started crying,” Wynonna, 58, wrote in an emotional Instagram post.

The 76-year-old country music icon died on April 30 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound after struggling with her mental health for several years.

“WHAT DO I KNOW?? I know the pain of losing mom to suicide on April 30th is so great that I often feel like I will never be able to face the truth they are so leaving to fully accept and surrender to her. The Judds story can’t end like this,” she wrote.

Wynonna Judd speaks during a tribute to her mother, country star Naomi Judd, Sunday, May 15.
Wynonna wrote, “I often feel like I’ll never be able to fully accept and surrender to the truth that she left the way she did.”
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“I know that I must move on to be a healthier grandparent to my first born grandchild Kaliyah, {born April 13, 2 weeks and 2 days before my mother left} to break the cycle of addiction and family dysfunction Appear for myself {first} and do the personal healing work,” Wynonna said.

She acknowledged that there is “a program of easy steps,” but noted that “sometimes those steps aren’t easy.” However, the grieving daughter has “committed to continuing to do the ‘next right thing’ and ‘making weekly appointments’ to continue processing the pain.”

The singer continued, “I know I feel so helpless — especially right now.”

“I know that, as cheesy as it sounds, ‘love can build a bridge.’ I find myself humming that song Mom wrote for the fans at night here on the farm,” she added. “I really know that I can’t handle this grieving process on my own and that it’s okay to seek help. I will continue to fight for my faith, for my SELF, for my family, and I WILL continue to show up and sing.”

Naomi Judd (R) and Wynonna Judd perform during the launch of their nine show residency "girls night out" at the Venetian Las Vegas on October 7, 2015 in Las Vegas,
The country music star announced that she will continue with the previously planned national tour that she and her mother had been planning.
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Wynonna ended the post by thanking her fans and friends for their love and support.

She previously announced that she will continue the 11-date national tour she had planned with her mother before her untimely death.

“After much thought, I have to do her the honor and do this tour. I’ll just have to,” she said.

Naomi has been open about her mental health issues in the past. In 2016, she revealed her struggles with “extreme” and “major depression” that kept her housebound on Good Morning America.

Ashley Judd, Naomi Judd and Wynonna Judd during the 19th Annual American Music Awards at the Shrine Auditorium in Los Angeles
Naomi Judd was inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame with her daughters Wynonna and Ashley the day after her death.
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That same year, she wrote a book called River of Time: My Descent into Depression and Emerging with Hope to publicize her diagnosis and let people know that mental illness “is not a character flaw, but a stinking disease.”

Ashley Judd, 54, revealed she was the one who found her mother’s body. “I have both grief and trauma for discovering her,” she previously shared on Good Morning America.

Naomi’s husband, Larry Strickland, 76, meanwhile, has admitted he was scared and knew she was in a “fragile” condition.

If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or having a mental health crisis and live in New York City, you can call 1-888-NYC-WELL toll-free and confidential crisis advice. If you live outside the five counties, you can call the 24/7 National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or go to SuicidePreventionLifeline.org.

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